everynight i cover my ears and bury my head under the pillow hoping the screaming will stop. but it goes, and goes. i dig my nails into my face, clawing away at my sanity, i punch and i kick, and i beg the lord above to make it stop, but it never does. the screaming continues. it continues until my tongue is smothered in the taste of blood, and i choke as the red liquid begins to tickle my throat. as i choke and slam my hands to my mouth the screaming stops. it is then i realize with a sinking stomach and tears flowing down my face that the screaming was my own.